Yeah, tomorrow is really the best day of the month of May. Mother's day, it is usually the day where all mothers around the world and their family have a good time together and somewhat go outside and show their love and care for each other not only to the mother but also to the whole family. Well, for me it is my mother's worst day of her life, supposed to be it is her free day.. free of problems and free of everything blocking her thoughts and view in life. But, sadly it won't happen because our entire family of 7 relies heavily on her own strength.
My mother is the best and most hardworking mother god has made. && god gave her to us for a reason that we are worthy to have a mother like her. She thinks that everything should be perfect and balanced, she had big dreams about how easy life should go. She went home late just to finish work and earn some money. In human standards, her brain is already battered and needs a big rest, however she hardly had enough sleep everyday.
I am a very big idol of my mother. At one time she said that we should do well in our studies so that we won't be like her in which at the age of 50 still working hard to earn for living. She needs to work hard just to pay the bills of our house which range in thousands and if not and hopefully not in millions. She sometimes drive quietly in our old car with me, and at that time I know that she's thinking ways to solve our financial and family needs. I can see and I can feel it that she had problems in her mind and will not tell it to us mainly because she's shy and tired of explaining it to us.
She's my inspiration in doing hard work especially in my studies mainly to feed her expectations on us, and I feel so useless when I fail sometimes. At this time I am the biggest failure of our family, I failed their expectations of being a college scholar and earn medal for my studies. I myself know that I did my best above all but I still don't understand why I can't have it.
She always remind me who truly I am when I was still young, and always remind me to be good and obey your elders. If would have grown to be a brat, then I would be the worst brat here Lapu2 City. But because of her I grew up to be a good person, a person who can control himself and his feelings.
Tomorrow is her day, but me myself can't plainly say it to her, a simple word which says 'Happy Mother's Day' for the stupid reason that I am shy to express my love. If only messages can be sent via up above I would really go for that mail. To anyone who can read this post, please tell my mom 'HAPPY MOTHER's DAY and I really LOVE you eventhough you don't feel it sometimes'
My mother is the best and most hardworking mother god has made. && god gave her to us for a reason that we are worthy to have a mother like her. She thinks that everything should be perfect and balanced, she had big dreams about how easy life should go. She went home late just to finish work and earn some money. In human standards, her brain is already battered and needs a big rest, however she hardly had enough sleep everyday.
I am a very big idol of my mother. At one time she said that we should do well in our studies so that we won't be like her in which at the age of 50 still working hard to earn for living. She needs to work hard just to pay the bills of our house which range in thousands and if not and hopefully not in millions. She sometimes drive quietly in our old car with me, and at that time I know that she's thinking ways to solve our financial and family needs. I can see and I can feel it that she had problems in her mind and will not tell it to us mainly because she's shy and tired of explaining it to us.
She's my inspiration in doing hard work especially in my studies mainly to feed her expectations on us, and I feel so useless when I fail sometimes. At this time I am the biggest failure of our family, I failed their expectations of being a college scholar and earn medal for my studies. I myself know that I did my best above all but I still don't understand why I can't have it.
She always remind me who truly I am when I was still young, and always remind me to be good and obey your elders. If would have grown to be a brat, then I would be the worst brat here Lapu2 City. But because of her I grew up to be a good person, a person who can control himself and his feelings.
Tomorrow is her day, but me myself can't plainly say it to her, a simple word which says 'Happy Mother's Day' for the stupid reason that I am shy to express my love. If only messages can be sent via up above I would really go for that mail. To anyone who can read this post, please tell my mom 'HAPPY MOTHER's DAY and I really LOVE you eventhough you don't feel it sometimes'
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