I was just wondering if ever I had a laptop or a portable something where I can easily post something on my blog when my feelings is telling me to do so. Everyday, even though it's already late summer now, I am experiencing different challenges and fake trials in my life. At that single moment, not a minute to lose, I can write thousands of words regarding my feelings and emotions where my doubts are still fresh waiting to be released on this blog as no one can listen to me in reality. But, because I don't have that to 'Gadgetriffic' reality^^ most of my feelings got lost and flown away by fair winds as moments pass before I can post again on this blog. It's okay and I won't promise that I can write always on this blog, sooner I'll be busier and who knows? our Internet connection will be gone soon.
Two days ago before we were leaving the house cause me and my sister were forced to go to Barili just to be with my dad and join their happy journey back home, we were joking with my elder brother, my elder sister, and lastly me in the cr regarding with my sister's education course. It started funny and boisterous around the house, we usually do that when we have spare time and usually joke harsh things together. However, whatever we say within that joke period is usually thrown away and not absorbed for we had an agreement that a joke is always a joke. But, when my sister said a phrase... that phrase that suddenly changed my facial expression, everything was lost on its track. It's like I was swimming in a wild tropical beach, then suddenly I was brought back in the city, I was so shocked! I don't know what to do or what my reaction is.
The phrase that my sister said "Education is a lot more better than Management or Computer Science just for the name that you graduated on something" has shot me in the head more than three times. The moment that she mentioned it and as my adrenaline rush rescued me from sudden loss of mind, I suddenly said 'yuck' and assumed to joke on something I treat very seriously and without doubt. But my sister's word is clear and I know that even though it's only a joke at the start, I know that my sister would'nt lie on a serious matter like that.
I asked my sister..."Who said so?" and her answer was the one I really expect the most, and yes! It's from my mother. I know I had the reson to say that this is my life and nothing and no one can change my own story or history, It seems that I had recalled something on that moment too. It's that from now on I don't have a choice but to accept what my reality is feeding me. I won't fake it, me myself know what's real. But I won't accept her term that just to graduate on something I would ask my parents to pay bills to a certain school just to get a stupid title. I wan't a title that I really work hard on and I always wish for, and lastly I won't stick with what they usually tell me[those words]. I wan't to discover on my own and fly by my own. I know that oneday my promise to my parents would be granted without them noticing it:)
Months ago, yes! before I was shot again and again... I promised to my younger brother that once they've reached our stage now, they would no longer experience the harsh reality of life that me and my older brother and sister experienced just now. I said that I will let him study in every school that he wishes for, even a doctor or a professional title, I'll promise that he'll have the chance to easily grab it.
But now, just now, I think I need to embrace my reality, and yes... don't you fake it!
Two days ago before we were leaving the house cause me and my sister were forced to go to Barili just to be with my dad and join their happy journey back home, we were joking with my elder brother, my elder sister, and lastly me in the cr regarding with my sister's education course. It started funny and boisterous around the house, we usually do that when we have spare time and usually joke harsh things together. However, whatever we say within that joke period is usually thrown away and not absorbed for we had an agreement that a joke is always a joke. But, when my sister said a phrase... that phrase that suddenly changed my facial expression, everything was lost on its track. It's like I was swimming in a wild tropical beach, then suddenly I was brought back in the city, I was so shocked! I don't know what to do or what my reaction is.
The phrase that my sister said "Education is a lot more better than Management or Computer Science just for the name that you graduated on something" has shot me in the head more than three times. The moment that she mentioned it and as my adrenaline rush rescued me from sudden loss of mind, I suddenly said 'yuck' and assumed to joke on something I treat very seriously and without doubt. But my sister's word is clear and I know that even though it's only a joke at the start, I know that my sister would'nt lie on a serious matter like that.
I asked my sister..."Who said so?" and her answer was the one I really expect the most, and yes! It's from my mother. I know I had the reson to say that this is my life and nothing and no one can change my own story or history, It seems that I had recalled something on that moment too. It's that from now on I don't have a choice but to accept what my reality is feeding me. I won't fake it, me myself know what's real. But I won't accept her term that just to graduate on something I would ask my parents to pay bills to a certain school just to get a stupid title. I wan't a title that I really work hard on and I always wish for, and lastly I won't stick with what they usually tell me[those words]. I wan't to discover on my own and fly by my own. I know that oneday my promise to my parents would be granted without them noticing it:)
Months ago, yes! before I was shot again and again... I promised to my younger brother that once they've reached our stage now, they would no longer experience the harsh reality of life that me and my older brother and sister experienced just now. I said that I will let him study in every school that he wishes for, even a doctor or a professional title, I'll promise that he'll have the chance to easily grab it.
But now, just now, I think I need to embrace my reality, and yes... don't you fake it!
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