I was sitting in a chair, alone here in our house. The house I described before poorly maintained and stain washed by memories some are cruel and some are good. As usual, I'm surfing the net as a hobby I usually do when I'm alone. I'm checking how's my classmates life are going and although I usually show to them that I really don't care about their life, I'm curious where are they going to study in college or are they continuing or not. I'm happy for them although a bit of me is jealous but I'm starting to get used to it and yes! I'm slowly embracing the change.
As I was going over some profiles in friendster, I opened the account of my former classmate in high school. He was a bit inclined to computers and I even discriminate him for wishing unto those courses and I find it stupid. However, as I read a statement saying that 'pasar ko bai' my world started to change again. Jealousy and envy is starting to accumulate again in my mind like storm clouds starting to engulf New Orleans when Katrina strike the city a few years ago. A few minutes later, I'm starting to see a bit of light and chance on me. I'm starting to get back in reality.
My false reality is very cruel, well I'm not comparing my self to impaired patients in hospitals but in the fights I've fought of against destiny, I've lost a lot and gained nothing but lessons on how cruel life can be. My pride is always on the go, but as I was experiencing these challenges I'm starting to completely lose it and I'm afraid that that time would come.
Yes, life can be cruel sometimes... but, you need to go on and embrace the change, we need to do it... we need to love the change.
As I was going over some profiles in friendster, I opened the account of my former classmate in high school. He was a bit inclined to computers and I even discriminate him for wishing unto those courses and I find it stupid. However, as I read a statement saying that 'pasar ko bai' my world started to change again. Jealousy and envy is starting to accumulate again in my mind like storm clouds starting to engulf New Orleans when Katrina strike the city a few years ago. A few minutes later, I'm starting to see a bit of light and chance on me. I'm starting to get back in reality.
My false reality is very cruel, well I'm not comparing my self to impaired patients in hospitals but in the fights I've fought of against destiny, I've lost a lot and gained nothing but lessons on how cruel life can be. My pride is always on the go, but as I was experiencing these challenges I'm starting to completely lose it and I'm afraid that that time would come.
Yes, life can be cruel sometimes... but, you need to go on and embrace the change, we need to do it... we need to love the change.
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