I've seen a bit of light regarding my situation for the past week-days-month and until now, however the light and the chance of leading it to complete recovery is still fragile. I think it's just merely and largely a slight bounce of my deep downfall or worse it may just halted a bit and will probably continue on it's course(I really really hope not). er, whatever I really don't know and as of this moment I don't want to think of anything that is about the future. As what I've learned in the book the "Harry Potter" and as I remember one of the last lines in book 4, "whatever happens, good or the worst, it'll happen and when it does we have no choice but to face it."
I know tomorrow is a dreadful thing to consider but I think God is only shaking me up for me to realize that I should not be overdependent on the temporary strings that attach me rigid to my comfort zones. Though He's not completely removing it for my sake, I still need it as for now, probably and maybe He's just letting me realize what it feels like and how the hell will it surprise me overwhelmingly. Tomorrow is tomorrow and maybe the good thing about my situation right now is that hopefully in the future I wont be so shocked or something(I really hope I won't).
Uncommon it is, sadly I'm not going on with my reforms anytime sooner. I think I just have to observe people, things, and happenings as of now. I think I've learned a bit of all the lessons it should have taught me. As of now, I wont be back to my normal self and regarding how and until when will I be like this, I really don't know. I'm still in the state of depression or economically saying I'm in deep recession right now. I'm thinking the economy of United States can recover first before I would. haha. JK.
I was really startled last night. I was in deep thinking(depression) and I ignored a lot of chat messages from my friends until an ex-classmate poped-out suddenly. Of course I was startled and I didn't expect I'd read Dodette Marei. Well, we chatted and maybe or probably God has planned it to stop my deep dilemma last night. haha. Does it make sense? lol.
Anyways, praise the LORD, He's always good! I swear!:D
I know tomorrow is a dreadful thing to consider but I think God is only shaking me up for me to realize that I should not be overdependent on the temporary strings that attach me rigid to my comfort zones. Though He's not completely removing it for my sake, I still need it as for now, probably and maybe He's just letting me realize what it feels like and how the hell will it surprise me overwhelmingly. Tomorrow is tomorrow and maybe the good thing about my situation right now is that hopefully in the future I wont be so shocked or something(I really hope I won't).
Uncommon it is, sadly I'm not going on with my reforms anytime sooner. I think I just have to observe people, things, and happenings as of now. I think I've learned a bit of all the lessons it should have taught me. As of now, I wont be back to my normal self and regarding how and until when will I be like this, I really don't know. I'm still in the state of depression or economically saying I'm in deep recession right now. I'm thinking the economy of United States can recover first before I would. haha. JK.
I was really startled last night. I was in deep thinking(depression) and I ignored a lot of chat messages from my friends until an ex-classmate poped-out suddenly. Of course I was startled and I didn't expect I'd read Dodette Marei. Well, we chatted and maybe or probably God has planned it to stop my deep dilemma last night. haha. Does it make sense? lol.
Anyways, praise the LORD, He's always good! I swear!:D
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