Hi Blogger, I noticed something on this blog recently. All my posts are bad and for good news I have new and a more worse one. Today(thursday), tomorrow, and the weekend is our long vacation for the first time since summer. Rarely it happens that a holiday in two consecutive days is granted for lazy rest-thirsty students like me or us maybe. However, that is not the issue... I arrived home hours ago with something heavily bothering my mind. For some standards by the time when I feel carefree, I think I'm not myself. At some time I was thinking of going to sleep to avoid depression and worse I was thinking of some suicidal thoughts, but hell no! I am a very strong Christian and I strongly believe that for even escaping the mortal life how the hell will I face our creator by the time I would know I did something unacceptable. Jesus Christ died for us, does it make sense if we end our saved soul just for earthly problems? Anyways before I go with religion I have a very good news I wanna tell you. At least for me, the world is changing and god has never been this close to me.*I'll make a separate post regarding my proud worship life.
What has been bothering me the few days has never been new, rude reality and vast uncertainties that await me... I feel like I don't want tomorrow to come fast. Being a firm believer I do believe that my faith has been tested and I strongly agree though I put my faith separate and I'm aware how it strengthened the past times. I've read a lot and talked to invisible people in the internet regarding my situation and they say I'm a kind of a deep thinker and my overreaction to current events is a result of over thinking and over seeing possible future outcomes. The same suggestions, don't think too much and relax for God has already made it easy for you. The problem is it's just so hard for me to, and I've been trying to relax my mind a bit to a point of falling asleep thinking and having nightmares. I really need help. But anyways it's ok... my faith is still very strong.
Anyways for real good news, I had a very good time with my pals in the dorm lately. I never felt this way before. All things are going well and for the first time I had super real good friends. However, I'm practicing to be without them sometimes. I know that they're not there always and as for experience time comes they wont be there even if I really need them.:)
I'm really unlucky, I lost my web on mobile and as a result I can no longer post via mobile.x(
What has been bothering me the few days has never been new, rude reality and vast uncertainties that await me... I feel like I don't want tomorrow to come fast. Being a firm believer I do believe that my faith has been tested and I strongly agree though I put my faith separate and I'm aware how it strengthened the past times. I've read a lot and talked to invisible people in the internet regarding my situation and they say I'm a kind of a deep thinker and my overreaction to current events is a result of over thinking and over seeing possible future outcomes. The same suggestions, don't think too much and relax for God has already made it easy for you. The problem is it's just so hard for me to, and I've been trying to relax my mind a bit to a point of falling asleep thinking and having nightmares. I really need help. But anyways it's ok... my faith is still very strong.
Anyways for real good news, I had a very good time with my pals in the dorm lately. I never felt this way before. All things are going well and for the first time I had super real good friends. However, I'm practicing to be without them sometimes. I know that they're not there always and as for experience time comes they wont be there even if I really need them.:)
I'm really unlucky, I lost my web on mobile and as a result I can no longer post via mobile.x(
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