Just yesterday I realized, wtf! it's Christmas time! and honestly time is so slow. I feel like it's been years since I started counting down before Christmas, until I forgot that it's actually so so near. When December started all I was looking forward was the vacation itself, not the thrill, the food, the church, the gifts, and the reunions for Christmas. God made me realize that I was looking forward too much that I already forgot the "now" that is more important.
I wanna greet happy birthday to my BEST of all best friends, Jesus Christ(is there any best friend I can call?). Well, I guess he's the only one and I know that like her(this blog) they're the only one who listens to me the whole time.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Contrary to what people observed on me, to be honest I'm a strong Christian who follows none other than Jesus and his teachings. I don't read bible that much and I'm not an acolyte to know everything related to inherited traditions from church. I don't know where does those traditions came from, but as a respect of my sector in Christianity I try to understand it fully. I regard myself as a full "Christian" rather than a Catholic or Protestant. I go to Protestant churches sometimes and I don't see any differences on the two. Well, the Catholic mass is a bit more boring and the Protestant churches are normally lively or what. It actually depends on how the people perceive on that. However, people are regarded more religious when they put God in their heart rather than going to church as a sort of compliance and a "need to do task" on Sundays.
Anyways, before we dig more on religion... let me change the topic. The past days I was feeling bad(emotionally) and physically. I feel like I need more exercise or what. At first I try to give distance to 'emotional allergens' that might only worsen my situation. However, I find the conservative approach rather discouraging. Why do I need to hurt myself by avoiding someone when I can be me and live right?
The previous mistake was already checked. I feel that I'm not making anymore efforts for something-I'm tired and I'm used to it, my Best2x Friend knows what is it and though I wanna share it to you it needs a lot of explanation and I know that people just wont understand so no need to waste effort. The direct message is that, I just wanna be me and not someone, I just wanna be there loved probably or if not it's still okay, I just wanna be stable. Is it that hard?
GOD HELP! anyways I may sound emotional right now but honestly I don't feel any emotions as of this time. I feel normal and I'm tired of thinking of a lot of things lately, the point is why do I make effort right? It's still my decisions that affects me in the end:)
I wanna greet happy birthday to my BEST of all best friends, Jesus Christ(is there any best friend I can call?). Well, I guess he's the only one and I know that like her(this blog) they're the only one who listens to me the whole time.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Contrary to what people observed on me, to be honest I'm a strong Christian who follows none other than Jesus and his teachings. I don't read bible that much and I'm not an acolyte to know everything related to inherited traditions from church. I don't know where does those traditions came from, but as a respect of my sector in Christianity I try to understand it fully. I regard myself as a full "Christian" rather than a Catholic or Protestant. I go to Protestant churches sometimes and I don't see any differences on the two. Well, the Catholic mass is a bit more boring and the Protestant churches are normally lively or what. It actually depends on how the people perceive on that. However, people are regarded more religious when they put God in their heart rather than going to church as a sort of compliance and a "need to do task" on Sundays.
Anyways, before we dig more on religion... let me change the topic. The past days I was feeling bad(emotionally) and physically. I feel like I need more exercise or what. At first I try to give distance to 'emotional allergens' that might only worsen my situation. However, I find the conservative approach rather discouraging. Why do I need to hurt myself by avoiding someone when I can be me and live right?
The previous mistake was already checked. I feel that I'm not making anymore efforts for something-I'm tired and I'm used to it, my Best2x Friend knows what is it and though I wanna share it to you it needs a lot of explanation and I know that people just wont understand so no need to waste effort. The direct message is that, I just wanna be me and not someone, I just wanna be there loved probably or if not it's still okay, I just wanna be stable. Is it that hard?
GOD HELP! anyways I may sound emotional right now but honestly I don't feel any emotions as of this time. I feel normal and I'm tired of thinking of a lot of things lately, the point is why do I make effort right? It's still my decisions that affects me in the end:)
9 comments:
Enjoyed my Christmas vacation just by "not thinking about school"
About the Catholic/Protestant thing...
It is a good thing you didn't say Christian OR Catholic as some ignorant so-called "Christians" would say.
I don't know if I really consider myself a Christian since at times I beg to differ with their traditions and customs. I haven't gone to church in months. I've only been through school masses and some invitations from some people to which I can't say no to.
The Catholic may be "boring", but the Protestant is "weird". I don't know... just my observation though.
Anyways, just enjoy on "wasting" your time. You will find it hard to find time during school days.
Just my two cents.
I love Jesus Christ, that's why I'm "Christian" but not totally "Catholic" or "Protestant". hahahaha...
I don't see major difference between the two, but yes I fully understand why they don't combine. It fully depends on how people think about their religion, nobody can dictate. Besides it's free will, those who truly believes will be saved and those who falsely believe will perish(in the bible).
Based on what you said about the Bible, that's exactly the reason why I don't totally rely on it. I'm not really sold on the "If you believe you'll be saved and not if otherwise".
heheheh, it depends on yourself though. Religion is not dictatorship, nobody can dictate you to do this and that. It's free will and I think it's okay. XD
I haven't really grasped the concept of "free will".
I can say that I'm really that "liberated". XD
hahahaha. Oh no!
I'm a very "liberal" person too.XD
It's just that I believe in religion in a "protestant" way, but so what it's still Christian right?
Free will means it's up to you if you practice or not or if you believe or not. But it's better if you don't go to church if you're just doing it for compliance like many adolescents do.
You may be atheist or a non-follower but I think in my opinion god(whoever he is depending on the faith-it may be allah, jesus, hindu gods, etc!) will understand you, he's always as ever understanding and forgiving.
It's only my opinion about religion things anyways.:D
Nope, I'm still a Christian but not a strict follower. You can say I'm agnostic at this moment.
Happy Holidays anyway :D
hahahaha...
very good! lolz.
lmao:D
Happy new year!!!!
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