Suppose I wont tell this one to anybody, but since nobody's reading my blog and suggesting the fact that this is online and someday the person to whom I address this post will read this someday.
I have a lot of lifetime regrets in life. One of which is losing someone which is very important to me. I was high school that time, childish and doesn't care on anything except for my own good. I was selfish at that time until I met a person. The person in which I refer to taught me how to love others and how to love her too. At first I disregarded my feelings of her, I find it childish to open to someone for changes. I thought that feelings will change soon, as what always happen.
What shocked me that very moment is when after months and finally a year of waiting, my feelings didn't change. Instead it deepened into deeper thought and a dilemma I need to face. I was so in love with her, I couldn't find any other person in my mind but her. I was thinking the whole summer about her and when will I meet her again. I want to kill others every time they tease her to another guy. Though the feeling is generally ironic, it's true and definitely I can still recall.
My last year of high school was the destabilizing year, it slowed and finally came into a halt. It was lost and there came the silence and age of new growth for new opportunities. I was engaged in a harder fought in life as I refer to it as the last frontier of my high school life, I say "after this, everything is finished and I'm off". I was engaged in a long battle of what seems to be a never ending academic battle in which later I realized I was lost, but the investments are still there and are still paying off until now. That time I totally forgot my feelings on her.
Yesterday, today, tomorrow, NOW... I see no point of hooking with her again, I see no reason and I think each of us has new lives that we live. We are totally different, I study here and she strives there. We're separated and it seems two worlds apart. I'm not looking for her and I'm not asking for her, she's in new relationship now and I don't think I have the right to be jealous nor to envy someone. I'm happy and I think that's all I know as of this time.
I have a lot of lifetime regrets in life. One of which is losing someone which is very important to me. I was high school that time, childish and doesn't care on anything except for my own good. I was selfish at that time until I met a person. The person in which I refer to taught me how to love others and how to love her too. At first I disregarded my feelings of her, I find it childish to open to someone for changes. I thought that feelings will change soon, as what always happen.
What shocked me that very moment is when after months and finally a year of waiting, my feelings didn't change. Instead it deepened into deeper thought and a dilemma I need to face. I was so in love with her, I couldn't find any other person in my mind but her. I was thinking the whole summer about her and when will I meet her again. I want to kill others every time they tease her to another guy. Though the feeling is generally ironic, it's true and definitely I can still recall.
My last year of high school was the destabilizing year, it slowed and finally came into a halt. It was lost and there came the silence and age of new growth for new opportunities. I was engaged in a harder fought in life as I refer to it as the last frontier of my high school life, I say "after this, everything is finished and I'm off". I was engaged in a long battle of what seems to be a never ending academic battle in which later I realized I was lost, but the investments are still there and are still paying off until now. That time I totally forgot my feelings on her.
Yesterday, today, tomorrow, NOW... I see no point of hooking with her again, I see no reason and I think each of us has new lives that we live. We are totally different, I study here and she strives there. We're separated and it seems two worlds apart. I'm not looking for her and I'm not asking for her, she's in new relationship now and I don't think I have the right to be jealous nor to envy someone. I'm happy and I think that's all I know as of this time.
1 comments:
okay lang yan yutah:D
there are advantages of being loveless in way man pud;)
pero your just scary if you're jealous diay, hahahaha, you can even kill someone. Pagsure oi:)
p.s.
binata na c yutah :D
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